Fear

D#    Dm        D#    Dm
    Poverty's paradise
D#                     Dm
I don’t think I could find a way to 
make it on this earth
N.C.
I've been hungry all my life

[Voicemail: Carl Duckworth]
N.C.
What's up, family?
Yeah, it’s yo cousin Carl, man, just
 givin' you a call, man.
I know you been havin' a lot on yo 
mind lately, and I know you feel 
like,
you know, people ain't been prayin' 
for you.
But you have to understand this, 
man, that we are a cursed people.
Deuteronomy 28:28 says, "The Lord 
shall smite thee with madness, and 
blindness, and astonishment of 
heart."
See, family, that's why you feel 
like you feel like you got a chip on
 your shoulder.
Until you finally get the memo, you 
will always feel that way…

[Bridge : Charles Edward Sydney Isom
 Jr.]
D#
Why God, why God do I gotta suffer?
D#
Pain in my heart carry burdens full 
of struggle
D#
Why God, why God do I gotta bleed?
D#
Every stone thrown at you restin' at
 my feet
D#
Why God, why God do I gotta suffer?
D#
Earth is no more, won't you burn 
this muh’fucka?
D#
I don’t think I could find a way to 
make it on this earth
(Reversed)

[Verse 1]
D#
I beat yo ass, keep talkin' back
Dm
I beat yo ass, who bought you that?
D# (Let ring)
You stole it, I beat yo ass if you 
say that game is broken
I beat yo ass if you jump on my 
couch
I beat yo ass if you walk in this 
house
                                    
                D# (Let ring)
With tears in your eyes, runnin’ 
from Poo Poo and Prentice
Go back outside, I beat yo ass, lil 
nigga
               D# (Let ring)
That homework better be finished, I 
beat yo ass
Your teachers better not be bitchin'
 'bout you in class
That pizza better not be wasted, you
 eat it all
That TV better not be loud if you 
got it on
                 Dm              
Them Jordans better not get dirty 
             Cm
when I just bought 'em
Better not hear ’bout you humpin' on
    D#
 Keisha's daughter
D# (Let ring)
Better not hear you got caught up
I beat yo ass, you better not run to
 your father
                               D#
I beat yo ass, you know my patience 
runnin' thin
               D#
I got buku payments to make
Dm(Let ring)
County building's on my ass
Tryna take my food stamps away
  D#
I beat yo ass if you tell them 
social workers he live here
   D# (Let ring)
I beat yo ass if I beat yo ass twice
 and you still here
Seven years old, think you run this 
house by yourself?
D# (Let ring)
Nigga, you gon' fear me if you don't
 fear no one else

[Chorus]
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D#                                  
                 Dm(Let ring)
If I could smoke fear away, I'd roll
 that mothafucka up
And then I'd take two puffs
D#
I'm high now, I'm high now
D#
I'm high now, I'm high now
N.C.
Life's a bitch, pull them panties to
 the side now
D#
I don't think I could find a way to 
make it on this earth

[Verse 2]
Dm
I'll prolly die anonymous
Cm
I'll prolly die with promises
D# (Let ring)
I'll prolly die walkin' back home 
from the candy house
I'll prolly die because these colors
 are standin' out
D#
I'll prolly die because I ain't know
 Demarcus was snitchin'
Dm                           
I'll prolly die at these house 
     Cm
parties, fuckin' with bitches
D# (Let ring)
I'll prolly die from witnesses 
leavin' me falsed accused
I'll prolly die from thinkin' that 
me and your hood was cool
N.C.
Or maybe die from pressin' the line,
 actin' too extra
Or maybe die because these smokers
Are more than desperate
I'll prolly die from one of these 
bats and blue badges
Body slammed on black and white 
paint, my bones snappin'
Or maybe die from panic or die from 
bein' too lax
D#
Or die from waitin' on it, die 
'cause I'm movin' too fast
D# (Let ring)
I'll prolly die tryna buy weed at 
the apartments
I'll prolly die tryna diffuse two 
homies arguin'
D#
I'll prolly die 'cause that's what 
you do when you're 17
Dm                         Cm
All worries in a hurry, I wish I 
controlled things

[Chorus]
D#                                
If I could smoke fear away, I'd 
                   Dm
roll that mothafucka up
D# (Let ring)
And then I'd take two puffs
I've been hungry all my life
D#
I'm high now, I'm high now
D#
I'm high now, I'm high now
D#
Life's a bitch, pull them panties to
 the side now
Now… D#
Dm    Cm

[Verse 3]
D# (Let ring)
When I was 27, I grew accustomed to 
more fear
Accumulated 10 times over throughout
 the years
My newfound life made all of me 
magnified
Dm
How many accolades do I need to 
block denial?
D# (Let ring)
The shock value of my success put 
bolts in me
All this money, is God playin' a 
joke on me?
Is it for the moment, and will he 
see me as Job?
Dm                   Cm
Take it from me and leave me worse 
than I was before?
D# (Let ring)
At 27, my biggest fear was losin' it
 all
Scared to spend money, had me 
sleepin' from hall to hall
D#
Scared to go back to Section 8 with 
my mama stressin'
D#
30 shows a month and I still won't 
buy me no Lexus
D# (Let ring)
What is an advisor? Somebody that's 
holdin' my checks
Just to fuck me over and put my 
finances in debt?
I read a case about Rihanna's 
accountant and wondered
Dm                         Cm
How did the Bad Girl feel when she 
looked at them numbers?
D# (Let ring)
The type of shit'll make me flip out
 and just kill somethin'
Drill somethin', get ill and fill 
ratchets with a lil' somethin'
I practiced runnin' from fear, guess
 I had some good luck
Dm                           Cm
At 27 years old, my biggest fear was
 bein' judged
D# (Let ring)
How they look at me reflect on 
myself, my family, my city
What they say 'bout me reveal
If my reputation would miss me
D# (Let ring)
What they see from me
Would trickle down generations in 
time
Dm
What they hear from me
Cm
Would make 'em highlight my simplest
 lines

[Verse 4]
             D#
I'm talkin' fear, fear of losin' 
creativity
             D#
I'm talkin' fear, fear of missin' 
out on you and me
             D#
I'm talkin' fear, fear of losin' 
loyalty from pride
          D#
'Cause my DNA won't let me involve 
in the light of God
             D#
I'm talkin' fear, fear that my 
humbleness is gone
              D#
I'm talkin' fear, fear that love 
ain't livin' here no more
             D#
I'm talkin' fear, fear that it's 
wickedness or weakness
 Dm                      Cm
Fear, whatever it is, both is 
distinctive
D# (Let ring)
Fear, what happens on Earth stays on
 Earth
And I can't take these feelings with
 me
So hopefully they disperse
Within fourteen tracks, carried out 
over wax
Dm
Searchin' for resolutions until 
somebody get back
D# (Let ring)
Fear, what happens on Earth stays on
 Earth
And I can't take these feelings with
 me
So hopefully they disperse
          D# (Let ring)
Within fourteen tracks, carried out 
over wax
Wonderin' if I'm livin' through fear
 or livin' through rap
Damn

[Bridge: Bēkon]
          D#
Goddamn you
          D#
Goddamn me
         D#
Goddamn us
          D#
Goddamn we
           D#
Goddamn us all