The nightshade of an unspoken matter
Cutting through me like an internal stabber
Every day, I bleed out the shame

Why can't they ever just feel the same

Close, we were getting so close
Now I'm hurting the most
Tell me how did I do this to myself again
Close I was getting so close
Until he went ghost
Or am I only haunting myself again

Odds against me stacking higher and higher
All that I could feel was my heartbeat shatter
My mental strain pours down me like rain
His name was never meant to cause me pain

Close we were getting so, close
Now I'm hurting the most

Tell me how did I do this to myself again
Close we were getting so close
Now I'm hurting the most
Tell me how did I do this to myself again

Close I was getting so, close
Until he went ghost

Tell me how did I do this to myself again

All I did was try
Swore he'd never lie
Now it's his turn to cry
Playing reckless games
With badly wired brains
A trap at every stage

All I did was try
Swore he'd never lie
Now it's his turn to cry

Playing reckless games
With badly wired brains
A trap at every stage

Tell me how did I do this to myself again

Close we were getting so close
Now I'm hurting the most

Tell me how did I do this to myself again

Close I was getting so close
Until he went ghost
Or am I only haunting myself again