Self destruct barely alive
I've lost the meaning of life
As we laid my brother to rest
Wish I was there for your last breath

I wish it was me instead
Put the barrel straight to my head
Still see your face at night
Can't get it out my fucking head

It's getting so much worse
I lost what I didn't deserve
For the rest of my life
I watch you burn

Push it all in the back of my mind
I lost the meaning of life
As we laid my brother to rest
Wish I was there for your last breath