They look at me like I should try
But I'm barely making it through the night
I see the worry in their eyes
And I just freeze, I can't reply
They don't say it, but I know
They're waiting for me to carry the load
But how can I save anyone
When I'm already coming undone?

I don't eat, I barely sleep
But I hide it all, I bury it deep
They need someone strong to lead
But all I am is broken, weak

I can't be what they need me to be
I'm falling apart silently
They're hurting, and I feel the blame
But I'm drowning in my own shame
I see their pain, it's killing me
But I've got no strength, no remedy
They want me to fix what's wrong
But I've been empty for too long

They don't pretend, they don't fake a smile
They're tired too, been for a while
And I know they're counting on me
To be more than this, to not just breathe
But I'm lost inside my head
And I can't say the things I've left unsaid
Because if I told them I'm not okay
They might break, and walk away

I hate myself for being like this
For every moment that I miss
They need help, they need hope
But I can't even cope

I can't be what they need me to be
And it's tearing the life out of me
They cry, and I just sit and stare
Like I'm not even really there
I want to help, I swear I do
But I can't even make it through
I feel like I'm already dead
But still get blamed for things unsaid

I stay quiet, hold it in
Too ashamed of where I've been
I can't say I'm not okay
'Cause I know they'll walk away
So I smile when I'm breaking
Breathe while I'm shaking
They want more, I've got less
And the weight is in my chest
It hurts, God, it hurts so bad
To be the reason they're this sad

I can't be what they need me to be
And I'm so sorry, I just want to be free
Free from the guilt, free from the shame
Free from always taking the blame
I wish they knew I tried so hard
But this world already left me scarred
If love was enough, I'd give it all
But I've got nothing left to fall