Push and pull till I hit the ground

You found me dwelling in the darkest place that I could be
My best intentions, worst impressions
I took a chance, it cost
I played the game, I lost
Left only with my indiscretions

I was searching my insides
I got caught in a landslide
Tried to beg for help but there was no one in sight

It always takes the best of me
Breaks whatever’s left of me
I’m still pushing for substance

It always takes a hold of me
Stuck inside a mold of me
But I’m still bridging the distance

I couldn’t see
I couldn’t breathe
But I could feel the world on top of me
Every step I took there was a void beneath my feet

I was searching my insides
I got caught in a landslide
Tried to beg for help but there was no one in sight
I cut off my lifeline
Left with nothing but hindsight
When I looked to you there was no light in your eyes

I’ll find my feet some solid ground

Remind myself of all the things that I could never be
Berate my every best intention
I took a chance, it cost
I played the game, I lost
Despite my every misconception

I couldn’t see
I couldn’t breathe
But I could feel the world on top of me
Every step I took there was a void beneath my feet

I was searching my insides
I got caught in a landslide
Tried to beg for help but there was no one in sight
I cut off my lifeline
Left with nothing but hindsight
When I looked to you there was no light in your eyes

I’ll find my feet some solid ground