Got a notebook under my bed
Pages know what's in my head
I write shit I can't say out loud
Words feel safer on the ground

I write 'bout her, I write 'bout home
I write 'bout feelin' fuckin' alone
Ink don't judge, paper don't yell
So I tell it everything I felt

I say her name, I cross it out
I write bitch 'cause that's the truth right now
I say she leaves 'cause she hates this place
Runs to arms that ain't my face

This diary knows me better than you
Knows what I think, knows what I choose
I say the things I'm not allowed
I scream on paper, not out loud
I write 'bout parents I never got
'Bout a life I wanted, but it's not
I put it all where I can hide
'Cause nobody's ever gonna read what's inside

I write she's gone again tonight
Chasin' somethin' that feels more right
Younger laughs, fake love, cheap perfume
Anything but this quiet room

I write she hates the way I am
Like I asked to be left with her hands
I write I'd trade this whole damn life
For mom and dad back every night

I choose my words, I choose my pain
I choose the truth over pretendin' sane
If I can't choose who's raisin' me
At least these pages listen to me

This diary knows me better than you
Knows every wish I never knew
I call her names, yeah, I admit
But paper don't flinch when I write this shit
I don't pray, I don't ask why
I just bleed blue lines 'til I'm dry
I put it all where I can hide
'Cause nobody's ever gonna read what's inside

Floorboard creaks, my heart drops low
Hands reach where they shouldn't go
She pulls it out, she reads one line
That was mine, that was mine

Pages tear, paper screams
She says I'm evil, says I'm mean
Ink on the floor, words half dead
I wish I kept 'em in my head

This diary knew me better than you
Knew what I think, knew what I choose
I said the things I'm not allowed
I screamed on paper, not out loud
I wrote 'bout parents I never got
'Bout a life I wanted, but it's not
I put it all where I could hide
Just 'cause everyone's gonna read what's inside

Room goes quiet, door slams shut
Grounded again, 'cause I wrote too much
No pages left, no place to run
Guess even my thoughts ain't fuckin' mine