When I can't get to sleep
I dream about going away
About leaving my friends
And not coming back
And what they would say

About how they'd miss me
And how they would hurt
And how in the end
They'd be okay

I even do admin
I make plans for the bills
The belongings
The projects
The problems
I tie them all up
I put them to sleep
And I leave

And someone would even come looking
And I'd tell them I'd left
Because I love you all so
And this would be a lie
And both of us would know

When I can't get to sleep
I dismantle my world
And I make sure you suffer
And I make sure it's bad
And soon I am sleeping
Before I have time
Before I have time
To be glad