You opened that door like it was nothing at all
No locks, no alarms, not even a wall
Just sat there, all sunshine and skin
Smiling like you'd let the whole world in
You asked if I was an orphan, I froze
Didn't think that was something anyone knows
But you looked me in the eye, like it made me whole
And for one stupid second, I felt in control
More too good, so I called your bluff
Told you I came to kill you, said it real rough
But you didn't flinch, didn't plead for your life
Just said: If it helps you, go on, take mine
And I, I laughed it off, 'cause what else do I do?
But I watched you say goodbye like your love was true
To all those kids, those stolen hearts you'd raised
And I stood in the shadows, stupidly dazed
What if I dropped the mask, just for a breath?
Would you still smile, or scream me to death?
I showed you my truth, I let you inside –
I dropped the disguise I always hide behind
I wanted to see if just once, I was wrong
That maybe I could belong
If you could look past the teeth and the flame
Would you still say my name?
Blitz says I'm his girl, a name I never chose
He means well, I guess, but he never knows
He just wants his picture-perfect day
But I'm more mess than meaning, I always run away
You, you didn't run, Not at first
Said I was special, God, that hurt worse
Because I wanted to believe you meant it
Even as my instincts resented it
I said: Ta-da, like a kid on a stage
Like the monster could finally walk out of her cage
But your eyes, they changed so fast
And I felt it, that mirror shatter, just like the last
You screamed, I shot, I panicked, I cried
Didn't mean for you to bleed where you lied
But it's always the same, show them my face
And I'm just the nightmare they can't embrace
What if I showed you the real me?
Not the teeth, not the hellhound they all see
Would you still let me sit by your side
Or lock all the doors and run to hide?
'Cause for a second, I thought I was free
But you looked right through me
If kindness can't survive what I am deep inside
Then maybe no one's meant to see
You said, I hope I see you again
And maybe, in another life, back then
But I'll be in Hell, where I belong
Wearing this mask, pretending I'm strong
You knew who I was
But if I dropped the disguise completely
Would you still see me?