How Long Has This Been Going On

I was taught that I ought
Not expose my inner senses
Had no plan for man
I was full of self-defences
Now I feel that I really
Should face the consequences

My philosophic search
Has left me in the lurch
I must find why my mind
Is behaving like a dancer
What's the clue to pursue?

For I have to have the answer
I could cry
Salty tears
Where have I been
All these years?
Is it fun?
Or should I run?
How long has this been going on?

There were chills
Up my spine
And some thrills
I can't define
Does it show?
And who would know?
How long has this been going on?

Oh, I feel
Like I could melt
Into heaven I'm hurled
I know how Columbus felt
Finding another world
Can I trust how I feel?
Is this my Achilles heel?
Look at me
I'm all at sea
How long has this been going on?

This is grand!
This is great!
I'm in such a
Lovely state!
Can one kiss do
All of this?