As I kick myself again
And I try to pick myself back up again
Don't want to make the same mistakes
Always the first with an excuse
But it's when you're cornered by the truth
Sometimes it's easier that way

As you turn away
When realization stares you down
And you swear you've come to terms, I'm wary
I've seen it all too many times

It never made much sense
So I always had to stop and second guess

Defeat myself before I start

Comfort seems so far away
Peace of mind is just a luxury
Forgetting is the hardest part

It's not what you say that matters
Because anyone can say those words to me
You say I lack compassion
But that's when my first reaction
Isn't how you wanted me to be

As I kick myself again
And I try to pick myself back up again
Don't want to make the same mistakes