It's okay, Astor

I try my best but I'm still fuckin' it up
Your scent is poison and it's fuckin' my lungs
The thought of tryin' makes me wanna give up
Try to do everything but it's not enough

I need a hand, just a little reinforcement
'Cause I'd do anythin' to make you feel important
Show you that you're special, I tried and you ignore it
I been lyin' and you know it
The love is lying dormant
I hate waking up and not knowing my importance
The effort isn't showing
The hate is gettin' potent
Can't look up at the clock, my time is gettin' shortened
I been fighting for my life wondering when the fuck they'll notice

Tryna open the doors, can't find an escape
Maybe it's karma or maybe it's fate
Start to think I'm the problem and I shoulda changed
I wanted things and I got them but I'm still the same
I wanted to be someone you could depend on
Someone to be there when you need a hand or somethin' else
A shoulder to cry on when you're not well
I wanted to be that, can you believe that?
After everything I've done
But I could never be that, am I dumb?
I been shootin' for the Moon, stars, and the Sun
And I'd do it again

I try my best but I'm still fuckin' it up
Your scent is poison and it's fuckin' my lungs
The thought of tryin' makes me wanna give up
Try to do everything but it's not enough

I need a hand, just a little reinforcement
'Cause I'd do anythin' to make you feel important
Show you that you're special, I tried and you ignore it
I been lyin' and you know it
The love is lying dormant
I hate waking up and not knowin' my importance
The effort isn't showing
The hate is gettin' potent
Can't look up at the clock, my time is gettin' shortened
I been fighting for my life wondering when the fuck they'll notice

I'm just procrastinating