I hold it back but I really think I should be crying
I can't get out of bed, feels like I'm dying
Heavy chest from the way that I keep on smiling
Looking for another soul that's empathizing

With me when I can't breathe
I got a switchblade on my side tonight
In case that I can no longer fight those
Thoughts in my head

I took a long walk through the cemetery
Empty out my head, try to find sanctuary
Hate it when my life feels ordinary
Listening to music in solitary
I don't wanna die but I wanna be buried
I killed who I was, I'm a mercenary
So I try, I try, I try to fight
But why, oh why, oh why should I?

I ask my God, do you really think that we are living?
I can't go on in a world where I'm not forgiven
Steel bars, everyone makes their own prison
I think mine's the memories that I'm reminiscing
Looking for another soul that's sympathizing

Help me because I can't breathe
I got a switchblade on my side tonight
In case that I can no longer fight those
Thoughts in my head

I took a long walk through the cemetery
Empty out my head, try to find sanctuary
Hate it when my life feels ordinary
Listening to music in solitary
I don't wanna die but I want to be buried
I killed who I was, I'm a mercenary
So I try, I try, I try to fight
But why, oh why, oh why should I?

You say you're feeling so alive
I know you lie 'cause so do I
You say you're feeling so alive
I know you lie 'cause so do I
You say you're feeling so alive
I know you lie 'cause so do I