I'm becoming consistently worse everyday
And I am turning into someone I really hate
And time just ticks on the final day will never come
I can't give up so I am forced to keep on

All I've wanted is suddenly so grey and dull
Aspirations have turned into a muddy blob
Nothing spikes me and nothing really stays
Only person I trusted to suddenly went away

Sleeping till the day is new
Sleeping till I feel confused
Doing all the things I shouldn't
Picking fights and acting stupid

No one really sees me, do they?
If they did why are they here then?
All I do is make them sad
All I do is always bad

How I wish I never mattered to anyone
Disappointing is worse when it's someone you love
And that's what I do, consistently I'll let you down
I promise you, it's better if you get out now

All I've always wanted is suddenly so out of reach
How I miss it, the hopeful naivety
Back when I dreamed, so convinced it'd work out soon
Only 15, now I'm 23 in June

Sleeping till the time is stuck
Sleeping till I can't wake up
Doing everything to get by
Is that why I'm still alive now?

Why have I not cracked the code yet?
Am I looking in the wrong place?
All I do is push my luck
All I do is always wrong